they made me do it

well i have been going across the web looking for sweepstakes that are points that you use to buy stuff...plus instant wins... this one wanted me to tell you about it so much it even had the http copied with a checkmark... so, i recommend it, or i wouldnt be trying to get more swagbucks by doing this...good luck, and you are welcome.

great reason to blog

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well well well. where to begin?
i know--incubus concert on friday september 16,2011 @ verizon wireless ampitheater in Charlotte...
i got hooked up by matt @ alan from 100.3 and i am forever indebted, cos i didnt think it was ever going to happen. getting tickets that is...
took my 12 year old daughter, Mai, to her first concert ever...crazy cool...so we are in line forever and a day hearing ==="welcome to verizon wireless amphitheater where tonight we present incubus and young the giant-after a very long list of what bands are coming and where it finished with--as always be cool, be courteous, and be careful...it was on loop so mai and i were messing with one another over it...
so in we go...ready with water, food, and blanket for the lawn..as we are walking on the lawn, an employee looked at our ticket and gave us seats right in front of the lawn..which was cool...so then we decided to check out memorabilia and such when we saw the www.incubushq.com tent...
there was a super chill guy setting up a live stream of the concert..but b4 that he was interviewing and talking to fans on tv...so mai and i were first(of course)and we answered some questions and showed my tattoos...he gave us pit passes...how flippin lucky was that...i had to go back to the tent to give my sister k & her kids hello from the concert(cos she was on incubus headquarters watching it...super cool..
so mai is giddy of course, i got upset that the ushers used a sharpie to x out the ticket...they said our armband was out ticket now..well it happens..


first young the giant..they were chill...i hadn't heard of them until before the concert, wait yea i heard one single...but i must say this, i love bands that have the enthusiasm and just send it out onto the crowd...good music good times...
then we went to walk around again but when we got back it had,what you would say three rows, away from the stage in the pit...super mother protective...but the lights went out and out came incubus...
all i kept saying was can u see? can you see? a little bit or yeah or no where her answers every 10 minutes when i asked her...started with megalomaniac..it was cute cos whenever any song started she was like which one is this? and I'm like i don't know(don't know the new album except for promises, promises and adolescents..i had to let her know they are known for just making some music as a different intro...
the pit was not aggressive at all...until certain shade of green came on...now that is my all time favorite song...i think i may have started the moshing...but i will not admit to it...tho on youtube, that part of the pit was the only one moving...lol
it was amazing, beyond words...

this is my 5th incubus concert...the members-brandon is lead, ben is on bass, mike on guitar, kilmore the dj, and jose the drummer...they should feel honored...they are tied with nine inch nails shows...and 18 years ago that would not have even be fathomed...
i am attaching some pics from my phone, mai has good ones on her phone and have yet to transfer the camera ones, but i will update it..
this is not really a review because for incubus they can do no wrong...well-if they didn't show up then they could do wrong..
thanks for stopping in...I'm going to try and keep up with this...i really want to blog about music...i dig it quite a bit...
the "books" i write are for children...tho i get to intricate for little kids...
maybe if i learned to use capital letters, punctuation and less ellipses, then i would be taken somewhat seriously...
i don't think the use of my name is hel, what else would you expect, hasn't worked out that well for me...

phewy

i read an article (not an aritcle per say) that talked about people apologizing for not writing in a period of time...thinking they were so important that people are really giving a crap,just ourselves..unless you have perpetual followers...so i wont apologize...well i am trying to get back onto the circuit again...
i miss music...
i miss shows...
i miss writing about them/interviewing them..
so good juju my way por favor...

ok thus begins again

well i have to take a moment to give props to my trent for his& atticus' oscar last night..
but then again ill do me first...just been blah lately...stay in my cocoon of a home...realistically cos every time i go out, thats gas, thats putting peanut in and out the car...have 121 dum dums in case of charleycastrophe in a store...but all in all its id rather be home...
so i thought my anemia was acting up so i went to the doctor, well more for my sinus infection but i said i need blood drawn cos i think my anemia is acting up...tho my headshrinker also had wanted this done, but this was prior to my acceptance again of medicaid...so they call today and say everything is fine...i am blessed...so just knowing that should be a happy thing...but now i realize that it has to be psychosematic or some shit...
that suks...
so today i am going to make a conscuious effort to stay awake the remainder of the day...
sounds easy? not from me anyways...
i should also finally catch up on my kids journals that i have been makiing since peanut was b4 the womb and i started one for mai, two xmas past cos i didnt make one for her as bad ass, so why not one of her beautifill preteen years...
nice...
ok so im off this machine now...
thanks for reading..

random crappity crap crap

holy crap shit, it has been too long...but once im on this electric god, it is mostly to do frontierville, cos im a dork like that...i am hoping that once ziggys reopens that i will be able to start interviewing again..but that is just a wish...saw stretch in the market the other day, and he tried diverting himself so much as not to be seen...come on man, you are like 8 feet tall with 6 feet blond dreads...whatever...its not like i was going to talk to him or anything...the only one of importance is jay...
what else??? well i have been insane ever since my mom biffed it and broke her knee, wrist and hip...she was in a rehab/nursing home til yesterday...all she did was bitch bitch bitch about that place...and now she calls me saying it was a big mistake to go home and i need to go more than three times a week...
that is fine and all cos mai is in skool 5 times a week and chuck is off at work or whatever, but im like, huh??? am i a physical therapist? can i administer drugs without stealing the good ones...lol...
i dunno...i mean yesterday after i dropped her and mai off at home and peanut and i got home, we took a nap...when we woke up i was in the best mood ever...i think it was my body and brain both saying you dont have to ride up and down westchester in high point to visit and do errands for tia and then going to my moms rehab to do the same...
my mom has this beautiful saying that i feel like hitting her when she says it...a son is your son til he finds a wife, a daughter is yours for the rest of your life...ok, no...i already have back up elderly plans if goodness forbid chuck is not around anymore...k&i will grow old and bitch and take care of one another in our house, until the city kicks us out for too many ferrets and lizards and such...and then in the nursing home we will steal the other ol ladies pills and trade...
i mean i say this all in jest but i am like ugh and foo...i do not know...i really do not know...
and i have NOT EVEN WATCHED DONNIE DARKO THIS YEAR...what is happening to me??? what kind of october is it?? havent even listened to late october by matt keating...well i was more waiting on cooler weather cos it is not the same when it was hot...so now i will sing it in my head...
and tomorrow, is halloween...mai is going to be a mad hatter and peanut phineas monkey is going to be a cowboy..he has the cutest boots and hat ever!!! mai's costume is bad ass but i spent a pretty penny at the store who fired me...well it was not the store, nor the rest of the employees just a sexist, tattoo hating, latina hating man who narced on me for missing days...and i never worked with the fukr...but such is life..everything happens for some reason that i will never know...
and i will post some pics that i already have on facebook but fuk it, this is my world, this is mine, this is my world, this is ALL mine...thank you filter for that last line...

moms disaster

well this weekend my mom biffed it down two stairs, or i may say up two stairs..broke her wrist, hip and knee...fabulous huh? surgery was yesterday and went splendidly...
unfortunately, since they do not consider tia to be an able body to watch her, physical therapy will have to be done in a nursing home...so just about 10 weeks out of commission...
but here lies my problem, well not problem, but something for which i seek a solution...
tia is 88 and she is my grandma's sister...she lives with my mom cos she used to live with her daughter but she passed away from leukemia years back...she tried staying with claras husband and he had no problem..tho then came the new wife...she had no problem either but tia did...
hence the move up here...
now tia is alone and i make sure to visit her every time i go up to see my mom...she has her independence with cooking cleaning and the whole 9...but she is 88...now my mom leant her van to some chick who had to take tia to her doc appt, and promised she would visit tia at least 3 times a day...yeah she took her to her appt on monday..hasnt been there since...so my mom is recalling van rights so that i may drive back and forth without worry of breaking my mother in laws car...good cos i said that shit from the get go that the woman was not going to do such a thing...
i call tia constantly, i mean she is the only link to my grandma besides my mom...i was a teenage bitch to my grandma and wish i could take it back...so i am compensating with tia...but i love this woman...
it pains me that they told her to go to a home in miami...her grandkids visited once in 5 years and it was only cos she was going from jersey to florida and she could stop in nc...but her grandson? never...and this boy is balling with money...
wtf does hel do??? i can send mai for the weekend but mai traps herself in my moms bedroom playing games and watching tv...how many 11 year olds want to watch over an older person? not me when i was her age...i mean peanut is a completely different gig...he is a baby...and tia is an independent woman who is just to high in age to drive herself to med appts, or pick up meds(mind you she is in very good health, just meds for i guess her heart, but that keeps it in check)or even go to the dang supermarket...
how can people be like that? well i am more content and have more respect for my oldest brother cos he lives very close, and he is calling tia too, but he has stepped up with mom big time..last time last year when my mom had her knee operated on(yes same knee broken..my mom said she went through all that work last year for nothing)anyhow, he was there but not but his wifes family was in a mess as far as people passing away and him missing so much skool(he is a teacher)...but none the less he has stepped on up...in my moms case which is at least one thing off my back...
but dearest tia...
ugh

yesterday i got offered a job at the local gas house which is like a drive thru gas station with cigarettes,lighters, gum, blunt tubes...lol...lets see those hours...
ok, k you already know all this so if it is you then i am just tooo mad at that bitch who took my mom's van and promised the world but gave her shit...rights revoked...
ok thats it..

september already?

well it has been quite a bit...i have a few things to say...well more than a few things..
mai started the 6th grade, peanut turned one...time flippin flies...had a job at a chiropractic office which started out as a collections rep, then the doctor(if i can even call her that) gave me a four hour crash course on the system, and then said ok, its ur turn...ok by that point, all numbers looked chinese...so she was kinda ill that i did not catch on in those four flippin hours...so she said that i could be the "director of marketing" so i start giving ideas on how we can get people in, and her response was sounds great, but make the phone calls from the leads...wait, that sounds like telemarketing...
then thank the good Lord that the halloween store posted their ad on craigslist...worked there, i want to say like 3 years ago or so...they took me on without even saying a peep...we have a store at thruway which we have been setting up..then today we had a soft opening...not bad, i have to say...
plus we are yet to open the hanes mall locale, but being it is smaller, we are focusing on the big one...
but i have spent time over in hanes...not much, because it is just repetitive costumes and such from the other store being put in whatever spot they fit in...i hope i get to stay @ the thruway store, but they are considering me for a floater back and forth where they may need someone with"experience" this is only my second season...lol..
what else??? not much,well really a lot, but being i have been suffering from a horrid stomach bug since sunday i am clustered...i havent been able to hold down food for nothing...chuck was like take a pregnancy test, to which i replied, my tubes are cut, tied and burned...but regardless he was flippin until i reminded him my monthly friend was only a week ago...tmi? probably but since no one reads this anyway, this is whatever i want to write...
oh another exciting thing is that ziggys is reopening...i am hoping i can get in touch with jay so he can hook me up with some bands to interview...he never sold out like all the pr people from the record labels...lol...not really laughing more like weeping out loud...
well charley fell asleep on mai and i have to do the transference from her to the bedroom, without waking him...but he is definitely chuck and mine cos he sleeps like there is nothing else in the world...how i wish i could sleep like that...i do sleep deep but wake up like 100 times a night, thinking i am late for mai's skool...then if i take a nap b4 work, same shit, thinking i will be late...i have a bottle of tylenol p.m. but i dont like being stupid clustered in the morning...
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