no no no!!! perez!!! no no no!!

i have been saddened by an article or more like a webclip of jared leto on perez hilton...totally saying he is a douche bag and his music suks...now perez is from miami and cuban so i totally had to be into his blog cos its unity...lol
but as one of my fave quotes from donnie darko-"he can go suk a fuk" altho he already does...dayum i say...
there is only a couple of handful of friends in my head that can not be ranked on...jared leto(as in a post a few days ago)is flippin genius...not sooo much cos he is beautiful, but the fact he acts, sings, and overall makes hel happy...
so perez i bid you adieu and will keep on keepin on with tmz and superficial...thats what you get...

a kind of retraction on stone temple dorks

now, i dont want to retract the entire blog...yes i am completely disappointed with the new single, i may need to hear more...but i reeeeallly dont dig the first one..
now what this is really about...i cant talk smack about stp...they just fit in my life soooo perfect when they were around...i dug every album...no lie..scott weiland was a good friend in my head...
----side note---at bellsouth i had a picture of scott weiland, well a whole page ripped from a mag..it was scott completely nude playing the piano...you could not see anything but his naked body from the side sitting down...this was posted in a prominent area of my cubicle...never once did anyone notice, or just say anything, that he was like that...cos the pic was badass...---
anyhow, the last few days older stp songs have been on, i think more than usual...so i realized i couldnt really talk smack..stone temple pilots played a good soundtrack in my day...so how could i? i just hope they dont loathe me now...or at least be mad at me in my head...after all they've been friends up there for quite a long time....
now i never said i was not a dork...

its already thursday

wowsers---did not think the week would fly by sooo fast...that work was quite manual yesterday and needless to say i am beat big time...so i am giving myself til 11 to get going again...not over in rural hall, just round southside...i sound soo ghetto dont i??? but i worry cos my cell phone is red...do i need to get a cover post haste? i kinda laugh the whole gang thing off, but that cant be done...i never got it in miami either...but i guess people with small esteem need to click onto whoever will take em...
i wouldve recommended the burnouts...they dont kill anyone,kiddies...maybe just their brains..or they could go the route of one of those super awesome kids in the corner with their little notebooks...they never kill anyone either...wait, maybe themselves..ugh i am awful, my brain isnt on yet..ill get back later..

farm day

well the day has been quite long, and i wont go into the whole growing, planting, hoeing, and all that jazz...thats for the other blog...
so i was up in rural hall, then drove back to pick up mai, then right back to rural hall...we just literally got home at 8...so its going to be totinos time real soon...
i have almost typed my elliott smith article from years back, to post it here...it must be read...i dug it...
but i dig even the stoopid things i write...or then i dont, and tend to throw it away or plain delete it...or if its in a comp book, it will stay with a big giant X...cos you know you cant rip pages out of a comp book...well you can but then you gotta take out the same page from the back or you mess it up...
i just realized how much i have written...not in my life cos that would be uber amounts...but you know what i mean...wow...only published 17 times...and that sounds so ungrateful and that is the furthest from the truth...i have met bands and interviewed people i never ever thought i would...but i dug my lil writing gigs...kinda miss them...
well the totinos is ready and peanut is hungry too, plus it is jammy jam time folks...
later skater

elliott smith article

disclaimer--this was written years back when i wrote for a zine called amps 11...it was out of Charlotte...so i could not find the hard copy and felt ever so sad..but then today i found the notebook which i wrote it in...and it reminded me of the random cat who sent me a shirt of elliott smith cos he concurred with me...now its up to you...
OK i was going to go through and fix all the grammatical errors and such, but its my blog and i'll do what i wish...

elliott smith-apparent suicide or unsolved murder?

I first ran across elliott smith's "from a basement on a hill" in the record store i work in. i questioned the staff members who gave me the pertinent info on the man. it got me to thinking, more like submersing myself into anything that pertained to elliott. then after a couple of weeks, yes i said weeks, i found out that he had been dead for a bit. totally taking me off guard. i decided to find out more. I picked up a copy of "elliott smith and the big nothing" by benjamin nugent. i learned much about his dysfunctional adolescence, to become the singer/songwriter we are all aware of. Yet the book would mention quotes of elliott's interviews. Then when friends were asked about it, they recalled no such occasion. So it made me think that he was either a confused man in the fantasy world he had created. Or then again, he would've been a great actor. He was able to change into what people wanted him to be. He was a beautiful lyricist, so much so he was nominated for an Oscar. The song Miss Misery was in the movie "Good Will Hunting" and much of the remaining soundtrack is also him. Unfortunately for him, he was up against Celine Dion's Heart will go on business.
At this point he had broken away from his original college band---Heatmiser--. I heard a copy of "mic city sons" Elliott and his band mate Neil Gist would alternate singing songs. Very obvious which were Mr. Smiths. His melodies, his almost whisper like singing, broke him apart from all the others.
Other noticeable notes that you should take down are that are of utter importance. He began his solo career with either/or. That is a great album, with songs like "big nothing" & "pictures of me". Other albums include-roman candle, figure 8, not in correct order, sorry. His final gift was "from a basement on a hill" which was released after his death.
Slowly I learned more about what was behind his death and i became a detective of sorts to see what i could find out. Some have said it was an apparent suicide. It was believed that there was a note that said "i'm sorry, elliot" Now just so you know his real name was Stephen Smith, but in college he adopted the name elliott. After ten years did he forget how to spell the name he had chosen for himself? The story released was that his girlfriend came home to find him with a knife coming out of his chest. He was rushed to the hospital, and surgeons were successful repairing the tears in his heart. Despite that, he passed only hours after the surgery. Initially it was ruled a suicide, but then it was changed to a possible homicide. The reasons that I learned from the book by Mr. Nugent was it was changed into a homicide for three different reasons. Unfortuately it is not direct quotes from the book, but I will give you the jist. There was that suicides who stab themselves will hurt themselves but not kill themselves. The second was his girlfriend refused to talk with the police about it. Last but not least, there were no hesitation marks, and his shirt was still on. Now what is odd about it, is if he was going to stab his heart, that is not typical for a stabbing suicide. Also there were no hesitation marks. That would be present because the person trying to kill themselves will not intitally get it right through the first time, so there would be marking or cuts around the main stab.
There was no sign of forced entry and that could make anyone think, he actually did it. Like other ongoing investigations such as Kurt Cobain, Tupac, Notorious BIG, even going as far back as Jim Morrison and Elvis. Will Elliott Smith be another unsolved music artist murder? I know he does not rank as high as the others mentioned, but he did have a great following in college radio.
So it seems that Elliott Smith put on his most intense final show of his life taken by himself. To many questions to be leave me unsettled. Surely you may feel the same way at this point. I will surely suggest picking up a copy of "Elliott Smith & the Big Nothing" and all, yes every single one of them, of his music. See if you can decipher what many like me, are still wondering. How literal was he when he sang-"not surprised at all but really why should i be? so sick and tired of all these pictures of me, completely wrong, totally wrong..." Many of his songs are known to have double meanings with drug references or maybe that is what he wanted us to believe.
Maybe he should have won that Oscar after all, but in a completely different category.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hHDbCC0Ongs
this is my fave song by him...it was also in the movie-the royal tenenbaums, ironically when luke wilson's character is trying to commit suicide...

post litho appointment

well yay is all i can say..the doc said i look much better...then he also apologized (but not directly)because he said that my stone(although low in the kidney and non obstructive)upon further review of the cat scan, it was jagged like a star...so he said the meds were justified and he had contacted my primary care doc already...so they did an xray---perfect...then i told him about the nausea & unswallowing gig, and he said that sometimes cos the anesthetic will cause the espohagus to relax, and takes some time to get back to normal on some ppl...but to check up if it continues for more than 3 more weeks...great, ill just enjoy my "diet" for now...
i am more than elated folks...it is amazing that i was finally justified and the pain wasnt in my head...he gave me tips to avoid getting more..believe it or not, it is not cranberry juice(he said that is for uti's)and to drink lemonade...also 20 oz of soda, and a cup to two of coffee is ok as long as i flush it with water and lemonade...
yay...i also lost 2 more pounds..but that is prolly unswallowing...but i am beyond words now,. so i will leave it at that for today...

stone temple dorks...

damn i hate to even write that...scott weiland...what the hell???
we all know you were or are quite avid in the world of illegalities...now he has cleaned up...uh huh...
reminds me of a concert at bayfront park back in the late 90s...(((groovy flashback music)))
now i do not recall who went with me to this concert, nor who else played...cos my world was seeing stp live...songs like big bang baby, plush, sex type thing, trippin on a hole in a paper heart...but he comes out with a beanie that said sober...or some shit like that...
he was singing awfully...no lie...and i love stp, and i dug him even when he went on his acid trips that he did not return from...
so i scream, during songs, you were better fukd up...now mind you it was gen admission...so to say i was in the 3-4 row, which was absolutely unacceptable, i liked getting slammed against the fence over and over just to see the artists...so going back to my fukd up statement...there was this huge guy next to me, not only big and tall, but scary...he said what the fuk did you say?
so i like pushed my way to the front...the guy lunged at me...but by that point i was those two rows away and had some guys protecting poor dear hel... :) cos i was totally defensless..so i ended up taunting the guy the rest of the concert, cos i would turn around see him, point to me, and point up cos scott weiland was right flippin there...lunged again and i moved my happy ass to the left of the stage...
so that was a fun stp story...i dunno if he heard me, but he knew he sounded better fkd up...so then came velvet revolver years and years later...what in the world was that??? he just got into a band to get heroin easier??? needless to say they are no longer togehter...
now here is where my love/hate comes in for the new stp...their new song between the lines, totally steals the chorus of stay away by nirvana but its their bridge...and it talks about even when we used to take drugs...now great for you scott...but dont ppl say they are sober when they are not, esp, when so adamant about it..
foo, dont get me wrong, i would love love love to interview them, although id be star struck, and writing this blog isnt getting me any closer...i am just upset that they let me and me alone down...why???
i tried to post the lyrics, cant quite locate them right now...but another note-between the lines is the #1 rock song in the country...sad...sad...sad..
i am not saying that he should start doing drugs cos it seems he likes hardcore drugs, but he wasnt bad on mind altering ones like dica...
i know that the stp love affair in my head was in the 90's...and now it seems like i will never get them back... :(

monday...

i wanted to say good morning to monday, but apparently it was really easy to pass out after dropping off mai...that nap is really starting to bug me...i sleep anywhere from 12-645...is that not enough time? cos by the time i return home, i am super exhausted like i have been up for days on end...not even coffee or energy drinks help out when its that tired...its not like peanut isnt the best baby ever...he plays quietly and sleeps next to me...its a beautiful thing...he doesnt wake up at night, only for his allergies cos he doesnt like to be stuffy...(who does?)but in the morning, he wakes just about when i do, then i give him some milk, he either wants to watch cartoons quietly or just goes back to sleep...so when i get home, its soooo easy to sleep cos i focus too much on his breathing...
so how do i conquer this issue??? i need help cos i recall being this sleepy at jobs and stuff but was able to get my work done...could it be cos i am home, and have the easy access of a couch or bed??? that has to be it...i used to wake up at 540 to drive mai to a skool in another county cos we moved close to the end of the school year...so 40 minutes there and back...then got ready for work, and that was that...ugh and foo..
speaking of ugh and foo, tomorrow is the 4th to last episode of lost...i really want to go on about it, but i will leave that for tomorrow when i am weeping, or wednesday so i can weep horribly again...i have to say besides my so called life(which only had 19 episodes)this has been a show i have watched since the beginning...well not exactly, i caught the charlie episode early on and then found out k was into it too...so i had to watch the first few episodes to get caught up..but it was not many... so here i am years and years later with a show that only lasts half a year(if even that) for an hour(or two if they do the explaining episodes of the week before)and now it will be gone...you see??? now i started crying on monday..dangit...i sound like a trekkie...but i guess im cooler...wait! i am cooler, cos lost is sooo much more into reality than the space shows...uh oh, no its not...flashbacks,flashfowards, and flash sideways...
ok i am a bit of a dork, but i dont like about it...
have a happy monday and maybe listen to a happy mondays song..

sunday morning

well slept til 8 when peanut woke me up, everyone else was asleep, so i took mr.bumble out of his playpen, and he slept next to me...
it was beautiful, although a bit snotty...lol..i am happy i just finished selling chuck's hardly used blackberry, and being it was free to begin with...we scored...
what else?? made some brefus for la familia..some eggs, bisquits, bacon, and saus.gravy...just so you know i didnt eat but a small plate...it was more for chuck and mai...its been forever since i have made a big brefus for them...now we are all lethargic..but i started yet another laundry load, and the clothes in the dryer(who have been laughing at me since yesterday)need to be taken out for the wet clothes...and i dont like things laughing at me...
im just glad the whole family is here, even sleep or what have you...so far beautfiful sunday...
did i mention mai's team beat another undefeated team yesterday...thats 5-0 for the twisters...yay!

saturday nap time

well mai's team-the twisters-remain undefeated...yay them...after that i returned home to grab some food and head on over to sara's...i set up google chrome on her puter while mai watched the kiddies..
it was quite fun, but when i got home i felt like i was going to pass out...so i did...not immediately after though...first i made some brownie cookies...well not brownie cookies more like brownie with chocolate chip cookie on top...not good for diabetics...lol...well maybe not laugh but chuckle...
mai now has the yankees game on...she keeps talking to the screen...first time she has actually done that...but she knows she has no choice, the yankees have to be her choice, cos if not my dad would start haunting her in her dreams...now that is a lol...
im anal over the weather on the way...it is definately not as bad as what went over mississippi, and tennessee and such...but last night when i looked at the radar there was a huge blob of red...i was like g-reat..but thanks to our mountains all (it seems) is dissipating over the mountains...but still severe t-storms...and that means mai up my bum cos she is not a happy camper in storms...
reminds me of the time that there was a huge storm at great adventure and my mom gave me a pill...she said it was my seizure medicine...LIAR...seizure meds dont calm you down and make you feel ludey...so all i recall was a small white pill...do you think my mom gave me a zanie or valium or something? in this case(and many others)not like mother like daughter...
what else? oh i think i have someone who is going to buy chucks old blackberry...i think my old one i will sell in parts...cos the screen and case are slightly scratched, or if any of my friends use sprint=holla

happy saturday

well it is just about 9:10 in the morning...mai has to be at the field at 1030...not too thrilled about having a game that early cos i have to get my baggage ready...can i break down for you what i take??? ok i will even if you dont dig it...
*small cooler lunchbox with the jonas brothers on it...(cos you know i dig them)
*my crocheting which the blanket is quite larger and it doesnt quite fit in a normal sized bag..plus i need to do 2 rows a day...at least that is what my plan is..
*peanuts reg diaper bag which is as heavy as him
*his stroller...
thank goodness this place has bleachers cos at the other places you have to bring your own chairs..
my stomach is growling but i dont like brefus cos then i will feel sicker than the empty stomach...maybe just a pop tart...we'll see...
hope someone dug the jared leto blog, but alas i still have only one follower...but i know even if its just daily b.s. that someone besides k will find amusement in it...
if not, oh well, cos it happens to the best of us...
so now i feel so fresh and so clean clean...but its still to early...i know in terms of hour it isnt that bad but i dont dig it for saturday...
tonight we are supposed to get the big ol storms from tenn and it was full of tornados...now i didnt ever have a problem with tornado warnings or watching but since i saw the distruction in high point a few weeks back, i have a few butterflies...maybe that and taking my seizure meds on an empty stomach...fooey...
mai came down as soon as i woke up...i sent her back upstairs after her brefus...can you tell me where she is? on the other couch, but since peanut woke up then its ok i guess...but the cartoons have started already...i just wanted a few minutes to myself, but i guess mommies dont get that until 11 pm or so...
mai went to her dance last night and i was quite amused..mai was all dressed to the nines, and looked quite pretty..my date peanut was quite handsome himself..me? jeans and a shirt...(no, hel is not so much a tshirt chick anymore, well yeah i am but not the huge tshirts i used to wear...i actually get shit on the ladies side now, although guy shirts and jeans still rock, but i must upkeep now...fooey) so back to the dance...mais little crush or whatever followed her around everywhere like a puppy..it was cute..tehn he came up to me and asked me to meet his mom...i was like, oooookay...so i asked her if i am meeting my future in laws..she laughed and said i dunno but it sure feels like it...lol..as for the dj besides him overheating the amp before the dance ended, it was horrid...the electric slide, miley cyrus, britany spears, the only thing i found funny was the chicken dance, cos it reminded me of jason lee on earl... http://www.facebook.com/#!/video/video.php?v=16976011549&ref=mf i hope the link works...
anyhow, that is going to be about it...for right now...
late-hel

ode to jordan catalano aka jared leto.

so last night i was all emotional cos i was watching my so called life on hulu...amazing...i was moved like i was watching it for the first time again...oh,angela...
so this is where jared leto became a friend in my head...got even more props for being the blonde hair pretty boy in fight club...and lets ed norton beat him silly...nice..
now comes thirty seconds to mars...they have been out since i worked at tre and that was forever ago..really dug beautiful lie, and to be honest i only know 2 songs off the new album, but still grand...its not often that actors make it big in the music world...although we do have the bacon brothers...lol...
i actually forgot requiem which was amazing...i have just looked him up on imdb and wow, his list of accomplishments is long...
i dont know why i decided to write a blog about this cat...maybe its cos 30s2m was supposed to be in charlotte on sunday(i think) but jared knew i was not going, so he postponed it til nov, so i can get my hand on tix...
isnt he so nice to me?
http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0001467/

homegrown blog

morning all...i have been working on 2 grants now...so now i have decided to keep this one as my daily journal about family,and random stuff i need to blog about.
i need followers for the new one and ill include the link as well,but it is mainly my farming,ideas,projects and everything else for farm4kids brought to you by HOMEGROWN FARMS. www.farm4kids.blogspot.com
well peanut has a bit of a head cold...chuck blames me for giving him people food from a food place last night...gave him a few pieces of ff and hush puppies...i was worried cos mai has a game tonight and it happens to be an away game in davie...so i know chuck wont be back on time, and i was worried i had to sit in the car with peanut the whole time..but i called the nurse and she said if he is fever free and no cough he should be fine, just keep him warm...i can do that...
still having problems with mais attitude but she is watching her words now..she is tired of being sent upstairs over EVERYTHING she bitches about. and to top this whole joy off, she got a d in math...everything else was a's and b's..i felt shock and terror, but i am not giving my kid an ulcer(unlike me)at such a young age...but the best part was the teacher comment on the bottom-mai is a wonderful student and is progressing well...wtf? a d is progressing well? i dunno...wish it was that way in high skool...she is just stubborn cos she knows she is smarter than that,but now she is becoming her own little young person, but that lil tween or whatever can become her own person as long as her grades improve...i even asked for a conference...that was on monday, it is now thursday...
well lemme get to starting the new blog...if you have garden or farming friends refer them to me...thanks a bunch

all things lost

lost...
it saddens me cos now the episodes are no longer focused on one character but several...and oh so many questions and answers...
i have a feeling the parallel universe or flash sideways is going to crash into the island or the flash sideways is going to take over if they die..or the island will disappear...
it is now quite apparent that desmond is taking the place of jacob...but instead of bringing them to the island(just yet)everyone is slowly coming together...figures that kate would end up with sawyer in the flash sideways...cos thats the kind of whore she is...well last night she apparently chose sawyer over jack...
and who is jacks kids mom??? we know it isnt kate...is it juliet? im thinking that to be so...what else have i concluded that is going to be wrong anyway...im diggin claire is finally a smidge non psycho but maybe she is going to flipshit now that she is taken captive...
another thing i know i am assuming is that locke (aka smokey)is going to smoke widmore or whitmore or whatever the fuk out...why cant he do that already??? save our losties...and jack returning to the island? well in that point in his life, that is all he has...it is not like the flash sideways life at all...
what else is up? smokey wants to leave the island...apparently so he can get out and about...hmmm...only 4 episdodes left...this is quite worrysome...can it all be answered in the next month??? well apparently the sunday before the finale they are having a lost event...itll prolly break all of lost down again with this season included...i am sad inside, cos this (besides my so called life)i have watched to fruition...i have been wanting to use that word for absolute days!!! thats the secret word for today folks,fruition...but if it took me three days to use it somewhere, i doubt anyone will get the secret word...fooey
so lost is so close to ending, what will we do? will there be a reunion show? or will they all die??? if they all die or the flippin island goes poof again, well, i cant even think cos thats like watching a movie that suks at the end...but in this case it has been an hour for half a year for the last five years...so that would suck monkeys...ok enough time to get some stuff done..
thanks for caring..

happy monday

well monday for my working friends is less than thrilling...but i most proclaim from the mountain tops that i am so grateful that the lithotripsy worked...mind you i am not climbing a mountain, so i will use this...dudes, you dont understand what i went through last time...or maybe you do...it was sooo flippin awful...and the bruising..ugh..but now i just have a quarter sized bruise on my back...and after a weekend of not doing a lot(yet still doing stuff)i am feeling sooo much better...
i have found a new grant, and it pertains to having a farm and teaching the children to be lil farmers...so i am going to have more time to get that letter, and i believe that the skool board can give me a letter and the grant people accept it...so all my work was not for nothing...so im not as depressed on that stand point...
my plants are thriving, although my dixie hybrid squash is beginning to fall, so they must be planted post haste...tomorrow i am headed up to the farm to see what i need to do next...what else? my basil looks cute cos they are baby...my other squash has started and so have my peppers...i planted some other this weekend-which include:green pole beans, corn, cilantro, and last but never least-pumpkins!
so now i must think of how to redo my mud room to accommodate my seedlings...and i find myself quite adamant now about farmville...if i cant farm on a flippin game, then i shouldnt farm at all...but this far, my alter ego, glynis is doing just fine...i need more followers so i am making this public..i know some of my friends on facebook are reading this but not following-why i ask? because the ticker keeps going up and i highly doubt k has read this over and over...i know you love me, but i am NOT that interesting...well i am, but not over and over again...well i am but whatever...
well i am going to leave it at that for right now...i hope you are having a fabulous monday...

gardening

well i have yet to put any plants out in that big ol field that i have...but some of my seedlings have popped up...my basil is still little little... but my dixie hybrid(fancy name for yellow)squash is super thriving...good for them...well i am still crazy with my grant but thanks to my dear friend and only follower at this point gave me some awesome advice...although that cuts my budget by like a trillion dollars...but it should be easier...i have to go pick up some more seeds...remember i only thought this was going to be a backyard garden...i know i dont have to fill it up all right now, but one pack of corn and carrots is NOT going to cover it...
the following is what i have in seedlings:
dixie hybrid squash
green striped squash
basil
red & green california peppers
festive pepper mix(this is all multicolored)

what i plan to put directly into the soil(because they were for cool season)thank goodness we hadnt put it in the ground cos we almost frosted the other night,but next week it is all go...
corn
collards
lima beans
onions
scallions
i think that is it for now...
what i plan on growing from seeds as well would be
tarragon
cilantro
rosemary
dill
so that is what i have thus far...any and all recommendations will be taken into consideration..
last things last-my bday is tomorrow...im not diggin being 30...lol...
and a lithotripsy on friday...oh joy...
oh and anyone who is reading this besides my dear k
become a follower
i will be more than content that i can put a name to the ppl glancing..
i know this is not all that fabulous but its my life and my blog...so there...pics should come soon...
nothing but love though..

blogging to blog...

well breaking in the new puter on the internet...but i limit it quite a bit cos every time i open it, it reminds me of the fact that i have to redo that flippin application that took me 2 and a half hours...trying to rock peanut to sleep in his bouncer with my feet..im just beyond clustered...and today my flippin kidney decided to hurt hurt...but im ok...just ill now...chuck went to the doc to remove this really big splinter...they told him (after some attempts)to go to the e.r. he is there and i am here...i dont like that...but kids cant go to the hospital unless they are ill...and its not like i want to take the kids to a hospital...mai is outside playing with her new bff holly...i really want to smoke a cigarette right now but id rather keep peanut in motion for right this second...im getting the kids to bed early so i can actually sit down and try to finish it...well redo the registry and then do the application...my proposal is done and so is my budget but there are 10 questions that say you should devote 2-3 hours to get done..yay....u gotta do what you gotta do...now i have to go for now...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

well i sit here borrowing sara's computer again...trying to fill out some registration that i keep getting kicked off of...without that done i cant submit my grant proposal...which i have gone ahead and written a rough draft...getting the budget done is a completely different matter...mai's softball coach had them there until almost 8...chuck wanted me to get chicken and corn to grill..i was so bummed that i ran my bum home to not have last weeks lost...that sukd...big donkey dick...oh i am so crude...so i sat and watched lost at 9...trying to get that app done at the same moment..it was a good episode and i think i know what they are getting at...but then again it may be completely wrong...still waiting for dinner...yes 10:16 and it is finally in the kitchen cooling...poor mai...but it isnt her fault...her praktice is supposed to be from 5-7 they were there til nearly 8...not cool...i mean do that on saturdays not weekdays...its not summertime...well since this is called helsmusic as my blog name...so i will comment on caged the elephant is great...their songs are catchy and not a style of wierd freaky new stuff that i am not quite used to...but i have heard several songs and i dig him...not like silversun which totally disappointed me...maybe the rest of the songs wont suck...30 seconds to mars is coming soon...how i would love to see them and scream i love you jordan catalano...good times...i wish my so called life wouldve come out earlier in high skool...but such is life...let me serve mai, i am going to wait for chuck to get out of the shower...so wish me luck on the registration...and i believe i will sleep better than last night...went to bed at 1 woke up at 3 then 5 then 7...sukage...alright enough before mai passes out from starvation...

easter

well here i sit at my familia's home for easter...the kids are having a great time, and its safe to say so are the adults...so not a cuban get together...theres no drama or shouting or someone ruining the day...how horrid am i?? lol..well i was thinking that my land area would be some spot in the backyard...they have tilled 30x30 area of land...so now all my schemes and drawings are shot to shit, but hey i have plenty o room to grow stuff now...ok what else??? dont like the new silversun pickups song, so maybe it was just panic switch...who knows?? what else?? well i gotta get back to this grant proposal...and with my kidney being all clusterfukd its hard to concentrate on this, but i will get it done, and whether the govt grants this money to me or not, hel's homegrown will prosper...freaky that north cakalaky has taken any sense of miami away from me...lol... hel growing veggies and herbs? well back in the day i did have a good herb plant...happy easter all!