saturday a.m.

well i only woke up three times last night..and the spaces in between were longer than an hour or two..
then at 8 governor peabody needed to have his bum changed and have some milk...luckily he went right back to sleep..at around 845 chuck told me he had some work to do, so i said be careful and passed back out...peanut woke up again at 10 so we are watching saturday morning cartoons..
it has been a few weeks that it has just been me and peanut...with chuck just doing odd lawns here and there, he is home and watching me constantly refreshing craigslist...i also keep sending out his resume for jobs i can assume he can do...i have had one response in all these weeks for me...they were all thrilled i had years of call center experience, then asked if i had any experience in insurance and benefits...i said no, they said they will call back..two days later, nothing...now why do that?? if you have my resume stating the call center and you see it was for a phone company and not health benefits, then why the fuk call me...such is life...i am still on the prowl...
i have decided i need a job in corporate america...altho its not what i want, it is the benefits and pay my family needs...so the search continues...there are some jobs i want to apply for, but i make more on umemployment than spending gas for a part time gig...
what else??? going to pick up mai...later on today...oh, i signed up for school...being that ftcc is being little bitchasses i decided to write to univ. of phoenix...i looked at a whole bunch of others online, but all of them had like a 20 percent retention rate...and graduation rate of 45 percent...at least univ of phoenix has a 70 percent retention rate, and an 83 percent graduation...that made me feel a smidge better..
thinking of staying on the psych road but have also contemplated medical coding..i know i would hate it, but they get paid buku money...and they are always a trillion jobs for them...i dont think that job is going anywhere anytime soon..everyone needs a doc every once in a while. and i guess all that get coded..
well what to say what to say...i think that is it for now...late-hel

new day

my sleeping habits are quite disconcerting...peanut is a good sleeper with an occasional waking but he just needs to be given his blanket...me, on the other hand, wake up every 1 or 2 hours like clock work...it is so ugh...
im constantly zombiefied...i try and nap throughout the day, but alas, my brain is on fast foward all the time...over thinking things all day long...looking for work is bugging the fuk out of me too...i have sent out so many resumes and i thought being bilingual would help...not really...
my eating habits are absolutely horrid...losing 54 pounds since last year(well peanut made me lose about 25 pounds or so, the rest was after...but my metabolism must be screwy cos i dont eat during the day(not to starve, just not hungry--maybe a snack or two) but night time hits and my stomach opens...most people who eat and go to bed gain weight, i dont...i am not complaining but i seriously eat the house...no shit...
so what to do...i dunno...just sit here on the puter, constantly checking craigslist, all the other help wanted sites that just want you to sign up for offers of schooling and such...
what the fukn hell???
and the fact of the matter is, that i do not want to leave peanut already..but he is almost a year, and thats when i started leaving mai...but it still sucks...looking for third shift positions...none to be had cos i have no experience in those areas...i would so work in a warehouse/factory what have you...the age old question---how do you get a job without experience? how do you get experience without a job...
but my farm is going well...i posted pics on the homegrown blog...and i keep applying for grants, but the pepsi grant is much more easy than government ones...
i will be patient...and peanut is now wanting to be carried or out and about so he whines quite a bit...i cant carry that 25+ pound boy everywhere...
i am just blah right now...not the best time to write, i guess...

wowsers

well it has been a while and i am quite brain dead right now cos i was up late and woken early, anyhow i decided to add some misc pics..i finally uploaded them to my puter from facebook...

oops

been a spell..just wanted to announce i have started a pepsi grant and need all the help i can get to vote for me...but news to come next month...pics will be uploaded tonight of how big the babies are...proud mama...