my sleeping habits are quite disconcerting...peanut is a good sleeper with an occasional waking but he just needs to be given his blanket...me, on the other hand, wake up every 1 or 2 hours like clock work...it is so ugh...
im constantly zombiefied...i try and nap throughout the day, but alas, my brain is on fast foward all the time...over thinking things all day long...looking for work is bugging the fuk out of me too...i have sent out so many resumes and i thought being bilingual would help...not really...
my eating habits are absolutely horrid...losing 54 pounds since last year(well peanut made me lose about 25 pounds or so, the rest was after...but my metabolism must be screwy cos i dont eat during the day(not to starve, just not hungry--maybe a snack or two) but night time hits and my stomach opens...most people who eat and go to bed gain weight, i dont...i am not complaining but i seriously eat the house...no shit...
so what to do...i dunno...just sit here on the puter, constantly checking craigslist, all the other help wanted sites that just want you to sign up for offers of schooling and such...
what the fukn hell???
and the fact of the matter is, that i do not want to leave peanut already..but he is almost a year, and thats when i started leaving mai...but it still sucks...looking for third shift positions...none to be had cos i have no experience in those areas...i would so work in a warehouse/factory what have you...the age old question---how do you get a job without experience? how do you get experience without a job...
but my farm is going well...i posted pics on the homegrown blog...and i keep applying for grants, but the pepsi grant is much more easy than government ones...
i will be patient...and peanut is now wanting to be carried or out and about so he whines quite a bit...i cant carry that 25+ pound boy everywhere...
i am just blah right now...not the best time to write, i guess...
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